Single Parent

I so miss the warm embrace of a man. I missed the GCC muscular arms embrace my body at night and let me sleep in a warm embrace. I miss when a man gives a warm and affectionate kiss on the lips and forehead in the morning. I miss when I can mencurahakan all the feelings that stirred in my mind and heart. I can not afford to be a mother at the same time a father to five-year-old daughter. That is, two people's jobs.At first, things went so beautiful and extraordinary. Luke and I got married in 1980. All went according to our expectations. Our happiness increases when I gave birth to a daughter who catik, named Alexis Suarez in 1983. But ternyta, happiness is not a long walk. In 1985, Luke died from the disease since 1984. Since then, I became a single parent for Alexis.Already three years I became a single parent. Semaik days, I increasingly feel tudak able with all this. I'm tired of everything that happened in my life. I'm still female norms. The longer, the more I miss him a warm embrace. Moreover, care, educate, teach girls five years is not an easy thing. Moreover, problems encountered problems such as leaky roof until the water pump is not the road should I take care of everything. I just can not live a life like this. It was all dark. Living with a five-year-old daughter and I, who became the leader, while my own life without direction."Huaaaa. Mai asked for grandchildren. Xis requested grandchildren. Grandchild, mom," Alexis voice was echoed at 5 am every day. My God, where views who say funny little boy, protected by a biological absurdity. I could go crazy with it all. "Mami, grandchildren," Alexis whined louder. Goods that are still affordable by direct hand thrown and thrown away. There's only one way out to solve this pain in the morning, making the milk quickly to Alexis. After that, go to school and deliver Alexis went to work.When night came, and Alexis was asleep in bed, I could only cry and pray to God that I do not hate the fruit of my own heart. This easy-open pass it to me. O Lord, until when I will feel this pain? I miss Luke. I was so Hope's presence. I want to cry in a warm embrace. I still remember, when he membairkan I cried in her arms and let me sleep there all night is cold. Why did God give me a trial that was so heavy?Successive years. Now seven-year-old Alexis. Countless beraoa many tears I drop to raise Alexis until he was 7 years old. Now that Alexis has been able to write. his handwriting was so neat. He is also good at singing. Which tepenting is, Alexis is understood that so hard for me to be a single parent. he was always struggling to please me. On 22Desember 1990, Alexis gave me a letter. "Mami, mami is not a good father. Mami always alone can not fix a leaky faucet or roof tiles. Mummy's not a good mother. Masakkan mami always keasinan or burns. But mami was a mother and a father's extraordinary . Mami never leave me alone. Mami always fought for me. although I know, every night when I sleep, mami always come into my room and knelt beside my bed and pray to Tuhanagar mami do not hate me and so mamikuat through life. I really love mami. Mami engga itself, really. Mami still had Alexis. Alexis also willing to fight like mommy. " Tears trickled read a letter from Alexis. I just want Alexis knows that one day that he makes me strong in this life and he has made me happy. Although I struggled to raise him with full of struggle and almost every night I shed a tear, Alexis still makes me happy.I am a mother and a father. What puny that occurs, I will keep fighting for my son. I will continue to be around him, no matter if he needed me or not. No matter in what manner he will dump me. I will love her with all my heart. Because by becoming a parent, it means I dare say "this is not about me anymore. It's about my son. I will fight for him even though I have to struggle alone without a spouse"


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